So long January, you were gone in a flash

Really, it's the 31st of January already? That was fast. Tried some new things this month, like exercising at lunch, which lasted two weeks and then all hell broke loose and I couldn't do it. I hope to start it up next week because even after just two weeks of doing it, my body misses it, a lot. I know, who would of thought? I wish the weather would get better soon, I would love to start moving outside instead of being stuck on a treadmill. Besides, got to get Joseph going too as we are both doing the half marathon in May. He still thinks I am kidding even though he is registered...

I managed to get another respiratory infection this month. This time I was smarter about it. I got on the right medicine right away and I actually took time off of work to rest and not push myself. Fancy that, I am almost over it 8 weeks shorter than last time. I know that my lung disease is not attributed to my weight but I think that loosing weight contributed to the fact that I am finally learning how to take care of myself.

Here's the thing, when I woke up this morning I didn't want to be OP today. I have been going for 9 weeks straight with no deviation, no WPA's or AP's eaten. Exercising at least 5 days a week. I was tired of it. So I had two meals that trutfully, didn't even put me over my points for the day, however I could have made better choices and amazingly enough that desire to just be fat because it's easier is now gone. I am going to sign off and then go do my aerobics video to kind of counteract what I did today. I will at least feel better mentally if not physically.

I am leaving this month 10.1 pounds lighter, a month older and a bit wiser. Not a bad deal for 31 days.

A Challenge you say...

Ah, it's Wednesday again. Rolled out of bed to meet my frienemy the scale. Time to call out the boyfriend to have him look at the number. I have been sick the last few days so I didn't know what to expect. Down 1.5 pounds. Very respectable. Happy Camper!

This was the first weigh in for the challenge I am currently in with another boardie from the 200+ board, Mrs. Annette K. She is coming out to Denver in May and we both kind of needed some motivation so I challenged her to a biggest looser type of deal. Who ever looses the largest percentage of weight between last week and the first WI in May, before Annette makes it to Denver wins. The prize? A $50 gift certificate to the store of the winners choice. Hot digity dog! I wish I could have upped my activity this week, but I am fighting another respiratory infection. I am feeling human today so I think I will try to get some light cardio in. Having a goal other than my end result weight loss makes me happy. It gets my blood flowing, kind of kicks me back into the honeymoon phase of Weight Watchers. We all love a good honeymoon phase now don't we? So thanks Annette for agreeing to the challenge with me!

It is so on girl!

Lessons being learned

Thank goodness this week is over.

I had a rough week stress wise, and the later in the week it got, the worse it got. I was in such a mood yesterday that I was pretty much numb to everything. I couldn't really tell you what triggered the start of it, maybe it was school starting soon, or the economy, work, or fear of what the future will bring us with the changing of the guard in D.C. this next week and what kind of world my daughter is going to be brought up in. Whatever it was, I did not function as my regular sarcastic self. I don't like that feeling very much because I can not pinpoint what the trouble is. In the past, this would trigger a binge of eating everything that isn't nailed down. I did not do that. I even really pushed myself during my work out to help break the hold the mood had over me, but that didn't work either. Came home to a hum dinger of a fight with my favorite geek and ended up working out again (still no help) and hardly eating anything. That was topped off by my sleeping on the couch. Shouldn't that be the other way around? So I went to bed without eating all that much for the day and I woke up sick this morning.

I am starting to feel better and a little more like me. I am getting a little bit better about feeling my feelings instead of feeding them. I still don't like how they make me feel but at least I am trying to find a better way of dealing with them.

It really makes me wonder what I am going to be like as the weight comes off. Am I in the process of watching my outside change and figuring out what I am like on the inside too.

Okay so much for updating every day...

Wednesdays are good days. I don't have to drive across town for work since I work 4 10 hour days, I get to take my daughter to dancing school and sometimes we even get to watch. You have not seen cute until you see 3 and 4 year old girls try to balet and tap dance. It's WI day too and for the past 6 weeks before today, the scale has been pretty friendly. I have to admit I was kind of nervous when I stepped on. Down another 3 pounds, which makes 19.1 in 7 weeks. Not too shabby if I do say so myself. Since I am doing this online instead of going to meetings, my poor boyfriend has to watch me stand on the scale and he tells me the weight. Doesn't count unless he sees it. Yeah, you figure out how much you love someone when you let them see you stand au natural on a scale when you are morbidly obese and how much someone else loves you when they are the ones who get up at the crack of dawn to actually read that number to you and holds you accountable for whatever those numbers are.

School starts again in a week. New major, new set of instructors, praying the new and improved attitude will kick in before then. I need to not procrastinate so much when it comes to studying and getting my homework completed. I admit, I do my best work under pressure. However, I do pretty damn good when I acutally time manage and get things done early. Also, I don't want to use school as an excuse to not focus on my new and improved lifestyle. I joined the gym at work and now take lunch in the late morning, work out for 45 minutes, quick shower and go back to work. My boss thougth I looked great with wet hair. Sarcasm, thy name is Cristy. The doctor I work for asked me if it was raining outside. (Yeah that happens in Colorado in January a whole lot) However, I now have a travel hair dryer to avoid this little problem again.

Next up on the agenda is actually going to school to pick up textbooks. I go to school online so I never really go to campus. I guess I could order them and get them shipped to me, but then Sarah loves to go up and down the twisty stairs at school and who am I to refuse an AP or two?

What day is it?

Hey Folks! Glad to see ya.

I woke up this moring not knowing what day of the week it was. Now before you ask, I did not wake up with a hangover, I don't like to drink my points. It's just that with the holidays being on Thursday, I have that extra day off in the week. I am not complaining, it just kind of messes me up. I am glad that I have a 5 day weekend but I tell you after two weeks of that, the week of 5 January is going to hurt...a lot. Well at least I can be thankful to be gainfully employed in a job that I really do love.

I have decided I need to better time manage. I have them broken into groups
1. Work time (hard to mess with since I have a set schedule)
2. School time (on winter break now but I need to get a better schedule for it)
3. Sarah time (My daughter, enough said)
4. Joseph time (my boyfriend, again enough said)
5. Me time
6. House time (Releasing my inner Donna Reed)

Now these are not in order of importance just what I am breaking it down to be. Anyway, I want to get something started now, so that making it all work will get easier. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

Happy New Year Folks!

Well it's the start of a new year, 2009 the year of the ox. Not that I have a clue of what that means but we will go with it anyway. Millions of people are waking up to new found resolve. They are going to make resolutions to change their lives in some way, shape or form. Not me though. I can't make resolutions because they last about a week or so and then I start to rebel.

I (re) started my journey of weight loss the week of Thanksgiving. Do I have great timing or what? However, with a month of holidays, I managed to loose 13 pounds! Not one gain in those weeks, although I did stay the same last week, and let me tell you how thankful I was for that!

There are a few things I am going to do differently this year than last. I am going to keep this blog up. Now, I have no idea if anyone is going to read it or not. I hope they do but you never know. It's helpful to me, to type out my thoughts and get it off my chest. In turn, out of my mouth and off of my thighs, hips, rear etc... I am also going to take a picture of myself on the first day of each month to see how my progress is going. As you can see, here is the picture from 1 January 2009.

If you do read this, I welcome your suggestions, comments and even critiques. Let me know how your journey is making you feel. How things have changed for you and the like.